the story of my life

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2006-12-03T18:19:00.000-08:00

just want to share something i heard from a priest...

man: "when should i stop giving? how will i know if what i'm giving is enough?"

priest: "give til it hurts."

man: "what do i do i it hurts already?"

priest: "give it it HURTS..NO MORE."

these aren't the exact words that he used.... but i hope you get the message.

there's no tomorrow!!!!!

2006-10-15T09:06:00.000-07:00

do what you have to do today.
don't waste you're time.
be in the moment.
be happy.
and don't forget to smile.

for there's no tomorrow.

sick, sad, sorry...

2006-09-23T02:54:00.000-07:00

for three days that i have been sick...
ngayon lang ako nagpahinga... but i can't say im happy about it...
i'd rather be out, active and living...

resting makes me more sick...
plus sadness is starting to kick in...
you know how it is when you've lost that sense of purpose...
and you're just sorry for your friends that they'd have to deal with you...

i think i have exhausted my friend's energy... and i know they've done so much for me...
i can't ask for more...
but what should one do when you're just not ready to be happy again...
to be YOU again...

where do you run?
where will you find strength?
where can i find me?

tapos na....

2006-09-17T18:07:00.000-07:00

and it has ended...
at least for me it is...

yung friend ko na dumating... may iba palang pinunta dito...
eh hindi ko naman alam na may iba siyang babae! gago siya! gusto kaming tuhugin!!!!
aba! i deserve better!
and i have no plans on getting into a fight because of him...
hindi naman siya worth my time!

cyempre nasasaktan pa din naman ako...
kaya lang hindi naman na dapat...
tao lang naman ako...two months din akong umasa na pagdating niya dito...
happiness will be in the air...eh since the dream became a nightmare...
i guess its time for me to wake up...

tapos na...

steady ka lang....

2006-09-09T19:11:00.000-07:00

hala!
september 10 na!
the day that i've been waiting for..hehehe! LANDI!
dadating na kasi ung friend ko! eh sa dami ng naiisip ko... wala akong magawa kundi tumunganga... tapos nabasa ko tong testi ng friend ko sakin... somehow, i feel better....

read on!

FROM AN UNKNOWN AUTHOR:

Everyone longs to give himself or herself completely to someone.

To have a deep soul relationship w/ one another, to be loved thoroughly and exclusively

But to a Christian , God says...No,

not until you're satisfied and fulfilled and content, unreservedly to Me alone

I love you, my child, and until you discover that only in Me

is your satisfaction to be found, you will not be capable of the perfect human relationship

that I have planned for you

You will never be united with one another until you are united with Me

exclusively of any other desires or longings

I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow Me

to bring it to you.

You just keep watching Me expecting greatest things.

Keep experiencing that satisfaction that I AM.

Keep learning and listening to the things I tell you.

You must wait. Don't be anxious. Don't worry.

Don't look at the things you think you want.

Stop looking around and look up or you'll miss what I want to show you.

And when you're ready, I'll surprise you w/ love far more than wonderful than any would ever dream of...You see, until you are ready and until the one I have for you is ready, until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me

and the life I have prepared for you, you won't be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me, and is thus, perfect love. I am working even this minute, to have both of you ready at the same time.

And dear child, I want you, to have the most wonderful love. I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me, and to enjoy materially and concretely the everlating union of beauty and perfection and that I offer you with MYSELF.

KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU.I AM THE ALMIGHTY GOD, BELIEVE AND BE SATISFIED!!!"Delight yourself in The Lord and He will give you the desires of your Heart."Ps.37:4

alone again( NATURALLY)

2006-08-14T06:44:00.000-07:00

just when i thought i'd be happy finally... i've met someone... he's perfect!
he said he like likes me...not just like... take note! as in 'like like'...
i was starting to believe this could really happen... my heart was filled with happiness...
i couldn't believe how perfect it was... a match made in heaven!

until things started to get boring... we're getting lazy... and we didn't have much to say anymore... i think its the reality of distance kicking in... we realize this is impossible... or maybe he met someone... but whatever its is... it just won't work...

i guess its better this way... maybe its best for this to end now...before i invest so much to it...

alone again....naturally

quotable quote

2006-08-11T04:19:00.000-07:00

a friend once shared this quote "every year you get older but everyday you become newer" bigla ko tuloy naisip... anu daw?

waste of time.....

2006-08-07T20:06:00.000-07:00

Yea
And I'm just a waste of her energy
And she's just a waste of my time, mmhmm
So why don't we get together?
And we could waste everything tonight
And we could waste
And we could waste it all tonight, yea
And we could waste
And we could waste it all
And I don't pretend to know what you know, no no
Now please don't pretend to know what's on my mind
If we already knew everything that everybody knows
We would have nothing to learn tonight
And we would have nothing to show tonight
Oh, but everybody thinks
That everybody knows
About everybody else
Nobody knows anything about themselves
'Cause they're all worried about everybody else
Yea, mmhmm, aw
Love's just a waste of our energy, yea
And this life's just a waste of our time
So why don't we get together?
We could waste everything tonight
We could waste
We could waste it all, yea
But everybody thinks
That everybody knows
About everybody else, no no
Nobody knows anything about themselves
'Cause they're all worried about everybody else, yea
Aw, and we could waste...

long pause...

2006-06-22T16:18:00.001-07:00

sitting in a chair, thinking....

trying to remeber what have i been up to...

i know there's so much to tell... but i just can't get myself to write about it.

i don't know why suddenly i'm so sad.

then it hit me...

i've never felt so useless before...

normally people would be all sad when their vacation would come to an end, coz they'd have to go back to work or to school...

i guess it's different for me... i have nothing to go back to...

some say, i should just enjoy it..i'll never have this kind of vaca again....but what good is all that when you don't have a purpose... lying around all day, eat all day, watch T.V. all day... after a week or so, it gets tiring... trust me!

when asked what i want to do with my life and my future... i get all stressed.. why? because i don't know exactly what i want to do...

i do have dreams, but i don't know how to reach them...

what should i do first... where should i go... what do i need...

i feel sorry for myself because i can't do a thing without someone telling me what to do...

what should i do?

longest summer break ever!!! -part 2

2006-06-22T15:19:00.000-07:00

2nd summer getaway:

DESTINATION: BOLINAO BEACH BABY!!!

DATE: APRIL 2006

FRIENDS: CHACHING! minus SAR"fun-loving chef"..so basically that's JOE"bi-polar boy next door", NYX"ecstatic actor", YNA"the last mermaid on earth" and me"the GEEK dancer" hehe

TRANSPO: Since BOLINAO was an hour away from our city and we wanted to save money(in other words, KURIPOT) we decided to commute. i was picked up by nyx then we rode a JEEP to downtown, where we met yna and joe at DUNKIN DONUTS. then from there, we rode a BUS to BOLINAO. and to get to the beach we had to ride a TRICYCLE.

OBJECTIVE: GET DARKER! SWIM! ENJOY!! AND OF COURSE TAKE PICTURES...

RATING: ****

COMMENT: we got DARKER, we SWAM for 5hours, we did ENJOY the whole thing BUT we could have gone better with SAR around.

longest summer break ever!!!! -part 1

2006-06-22T14:26:00.000-07:00

so after three months of summer vaca, i guess i should have tons of stories to write and let the whole world know how am i doing now...

as what you might have guessed.... well, i'm having a blast!

1st summer getaway:

DESTINATION: ENCHANTED KINGDOM!!!

DATE: MARCH 2006

FRIENDS: College friends ( Zarah"d' reklamador" she'd complain bout the tiniest thing for the sake of complaining(don't get me wrong i love her to death!), Abeng"lawiswis" cute and petite, Jabong"a.k.a kitchie nadal" talented girl!, Tina"katokayo!" we're like twins, Eljay"bop" (where tina is, bop is...hehe), Cha"hyperactive she just loves to smile, Argel"Arturo" mr. atlas, Kap"Ang gara" bulaceno, and Louie"Luis Manzano-kuno", hehe)
TRANSPO: FX ni KAP and Van ni Argel

OBJECTIVE: have FUN, RELAX, and be a KID again!!! and of course TAKE PICTURES...hehehe

RATING:***
COMMENT: the more the merrier... ndi kompleto ang bubuli team...daming wala...but we sure did enjoyed ourselves..after all the hardships we've been through.. we deserve to fun, don't we?